Exhausted.
Tired.
I debated whether or not to update my Facebook status to reflect how I really felt. What would others think if I posted, “Just not having a good day. I’m tired of praying these same prayers!”
Not every day is a good day. This day was especially hard as I held my prayer journal. I thought, I just don’t have it in me to pray those prayers again. I’m exhausted, worn out. I might be able to read my Bible, but pray? Not today.
I decided to go for it; share the reality of my emotional state on Facebook. Maybe someone else would be encouraged that others, too, have bads day and struggling to pray for things that break their heart.
There was another woman whose prayers were hard to pray. Her name was Hannah, and for years she prayed for and longed desperately for a child.
Each year, Hannah traveled with her husband to worship the Lord. One year in particular, the burden of her prayer was more than she could take. The Bible says, “In bitterness of soul Hannah wept much and prayed to the LORD“ (1 Samuel 1:10, NIV 1984).
As she prayed in her heart, her lips were moving, but her voice was not heard. The priest thought she was drunk! “‘Not so, my LORD,’ Hannah replied, ‘I am a woman who is deeply troubled … I have been praying here out of my great anguish and grief’” (vv. 15,16).
Eli, the priest, sensed Hannah’s pain and stepped into her situation with words to encourage, “Go in peace, and may the God of Israel grant you what you have asked of him” (v. 17). The story tells us that Eli’s words made a difference, and Hannah left no longer sad.
While a priest didn’t respond to my Facebook status, my dear friend Julie did. She had read my post and called, asking, “Are you OK?”
With those three short words, my dam of keeping-it-all-together broke. “No, I’m not.” The flood of weariness from unanswered prayers poured out.
From there, my friend reassured me she was praying for me, but it was her challenge that did my heart the most good. Her words enabled me to “go in peace,” like Eli told Hannah to do.
Julie encouraged me to pick up my prayer journal. Not so I could pray the prayers again, but to see God’s faithfulness in the past.
“Go through and read all the prayers God has answered in your life,” Julie said. She assured me that remembering God’s goodness would fuel me to keep praying and trusting God for those answers yet to come.
I recognized wise advice, so I took my prayer journal and read of God’s faithfulness to me and my family. In fact, I read it out loud. It made a difference in my attitude.
God finally answered Hannah’s prayer for a son after many years of prayer. And while I don’t want to wait years to see answers to my prayers, Hannah’s story inspires me to keep worshiping, praying and looking for His answers.
Do you have a prayer you are weary of praying? Maybe it’s time to focus on God’s faithfulness in those answered prayers in your past.
Dear Jesus, You are faithful, always. Though I may grow weary in praying for Your will and Your ways to be accomplished in my life, You never grow weary. Though I may not see what You are doing, I know You are working. Today, I rest in the comfort of what You have done in my past and all You will do in my future. In Your Name, Amen.
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